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Hi there, welcome to this blog of mine. I’m Lindsey.
When I discovered that my mental health went downhill nonstop 7 years ago, I freaked out. It was slow but inevitable, it crept in and disrupted my daily life without me knowing and suddenly, everything went wrong. I was risking my study, my work, and my future because I couldn’t control the way I think from all the nervous breakdowns. I didn’t know where to look for help, or who to talk to without being scared that they think I’ve gone crazy. I was so lost and unaware, and I really felt like I was losing my mind for good.
But I’m not that person anymore. My life is slowly turning back closer into what it used to be, and I now know I’m not crazy. There’s always a rational explanation to every symptom I had, and no matter how severe they were, they can eventually be controlled.
To begin with, I’m not an expert or having anything to do with the professional study of mental health, so things I put on here will be from my perspective and understanding only. I made this blog in order to accomplish these goals of mine:
I have never felt secure enough to openly talk about my mental disorders with people I know in real life. It’s not like I wanted to hide that I’m struggling, more like I’m not the type of person who can express feelings easily. Usually, I wish people wouldn’t feel that I’m being a burden to them with my ugly state of mind, and ultimately, those built up emotions become a burden to me myself. So this is my way of fighting my insecurity, and freeing my mind a little bit.
I want to share what I’ve learned about mental health, and what actually helped me get better. After all, living with my disorders for this long makes me realize that learning what made me become this way does, in fact, improve its condition (who would’ve thought, right?). Maybe the idea of knowing your own self on a scientific level would somehow lessen your feeling of being an outcast to the world, like I once did. But if you’re really struggling, please don’t hesitate to see a doctor for professional advice.
I hope to reach out to others who are constantly fighting like me. For the past years, I’ve posted some of my stories on other platforms and received a bunch of advice from people who never knew who I was but were incredibly kind and caring. Those encouraging words are what kept me going forward until now, so if you want to find a common soul or need some word of comfort, I’m all ears.
I’m improving myself in my own way, and while my writing may be all over the place, I’ll keep on trying and hope to have this blog updated regularly. So come with me on a journey through my messy thoughts and lost feelings. You’re welcome to stay.
Lindsey
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